Light in the fog

The pregnancy fog has descended. I have timed things pretty well, since I am mostly done with my dissertation analysis. I just hope I'm still mentally quick enough to get through my defense without sounding like an idiot.

I have definitely lost mental capacity. I know I am stressed under finishing my dissertation and all that, but I am unable to plan as well as I normally do even when I am stressed. I have lost my ability to determine cardinal directions relative to my current position. I also get confused by things that normally would not confuse me. I have to make a lot of tables, for instance, and I got entirely stuck on if I should describe the entire sample or just the subsample I used for the analyses in one of them. This isn't something with a right answer, but it needs a justifiable answer. I probably burned thirty minutes trying to figure it out.

But it isn't a bad kind of foggy, most of the time. It is a light detachment. All those hormones are on high, and that isn't all bad. When I'm not stressed, I'm just floating and smiling, and that is nice.